남의 일도 내 일 같고 그래. 그냥 마음 편히 있으라는 말이 별로 도움이 되지 않아. 나도 같은 일에 처할 수도 있는데 그런 말이 들릴리가 없지.
내 일만으로도 벅찬 것은 사실이야. 그래서 신경을 끄고싶어. 하지만 그게 남의 일이 결코 아니라니까.
I feel like other people's matter is like mine. People say I shouldn't mind and should be relaxed, but it doesn't help. It's hardly possible that I listen to their advice because I might have the same problem. My matter is indeed, overwhelming. So I want to switch off. But that's not other's business at all.
"No word comes out. My heart is torn, my body shakes and tears well up in my eyes."
My emotion on 5th March. I was so afraid to lose my Mother. I started a day with tears. It was not only 5th March. It was a daily routine.
My mom has told me she has pain on her stomach. I googled her symptom and assumed that she might have a problem with hearts. I was worried so much. A friend of mine told me she would be alright, saying when she googles her symptom, she always have cancer. But why my bad feeling never goes wrong? My mom was diagnosed with heart failure in the end. On 7th February, I got this news, and I cried so much. I started and finished a day with tears everyday. It was the worst day ever in recent years.
